Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Down but not Out

Monday started out great. I had my coffee, I was working EMS in Glendale (my favorite city to work in due to the amount of crazy people,stabbings, and shootings) and I was prepared to take down the fat kid. I was armed with salad, edemame, and water. The day was going pretty slow, we had only run 3 calls and they were all easy stuff. Except for the strangulated bowel call earlier that morning (I will let you imagine the smell). We were sitting at the station when we received tones for a Chest Pain call. The patient was waiting for us in their car on a busy road, we loaded all 400lbs of the patient onto the gurney and used a 4 man lift to raise the gurney. Sounds like things are going just nifty right? well about 30 seconds later when we tried to lift the gurney into the ambulance, I lifted and felt a shooting pain go down my side from my lower back to my leg. Now in my profession this is something you always hear about, lifting mechanics are preached about like Jesus' second coming. "Lift with your legs and not your back, don't lift more than you can handle, call for help, etc etc." So as soon as I felt my back go I knew It wasn't going to be good. I finished the call and went home after work. The pain started out as tolerable then quickly went down hill to unbearable. Luckily I married a Physical Therapist who just as quickly went to work on my back, I was set up with ice, stim, and evaluated. I reported my injury and off to the Doctor I went. The official diagnosis is Lumbar Strain, I go back today to get re-evaluated and hopefully cleared for work. But unfortunately this means I am also out of the gym, I am going to go later and try to use the bike for a little bit and just get some movement going. Being sedentary for this long is getting on my nerves. It also means that my caloric intake will be dramatically cut while I am not working out. It is salads, chicken and broccoli until I can start hitting the gym hard again.  

My weight loss goal for November was 10lbs, today is the 1st and I lost 5 lbs. I didn't hit my goal but I am trying to not let it bring me down, I am still down 15 lbs. I can't let this be an excuse to eat and eat and eat. I want to...I want to wallow in my fat sorrows with a pepperoni pizza and Dr. Pepper for company. bleh. The sad part is that I don't even really want those things, just the idea of them. I had a skinny peppermint mocha and egg white wrap from Starbucks today for breakfast and it was delicious. So I don't know why I want the bad stuff even though I enjoy the good stuff.

So new plan.... Eat better, fix the back, and enjoy it. Its not a death sentence, Fat last longer than flavor and I want to last as long as I can. 

Monday, November 28, 2011

Turkey Hangover

Well it was a busy couple of days with some highs and some lows, I will try and recap it all...

Thursday was great, we went for a 7 mile run, ate at Eisensteins for breakfast, went to the Paulson/Kernan household for Thanksgiving dinner and I had my first run at Black Friday! If you didn't know Eisensteins has great egg white bagel thin sandwiches for breakfast, they are under 400 calories and when paired with a fruit cup they make a pretty well rounded breakfast. The run went ok. My knees, hips, and ankle started to give out but we finished and that's all that matters. Its a big deal that me and scott were able to run 7 miles basically non stop and that we even considered the idea. Even a year ago we wouldn't have even thought about working out before a big calorie day. We ran the skunk creek trail behind our house, 3.5 miles out and 3.5 miles back. Then after some frantic last minute baking and showers we left for Thanksgiving dinner. We had a great time and I didn't even think about calories while we were there. I had beer, played dice, ate turkey and all the essential side dishes, then I even had pie....mmmmm pie. The turkey coma hit soon after and Scott was snoring on the couch, I couldn't move so I watched football and tried to not fall asleep. After that we went to the Lewis household for some more drinks and to say hi to friends and puppies. We also went over all the Black Friday adds to get ready for the midnight madness. Black Friday was fun, we started at 10pm and except for a 5hour nap from 3am to 8am we were out until 4pm. We had a late lunch at Four Peaks, I had a awesome greek style salad. So that was the Thursday/Friday Recap :)

Friday I had a big slip up, I went to jack in the box and woofed down a taco. I went back to my days of hiding food, eating out of shame, and not being able to say no. I got caught and it was horrifying. But now I can move on and keep trying to lose the weight. Going into Thursday I was 5lbs away from my goal of losing 10lbs in November. I gained 3lbs over the holiday but I have since lost 1.5 of that so if you do the math, I now have 6.5 lbs to lose in 3 days... Probably not going to happen but I am going  to work my ass off to lose as much as I can in those three days.

Workout Diary
Thursday- 7 mile run
Friday- 5 mile run
Saturday- 2 mile run
Sunday- day off


Food Diary
Thursday: egg white bagel thin(400cal) Turkey Dinner (8billion cal) 4 beers, coffee
Friday: Bagel Sandwich, greek salad, taco
Saturday: Egg white omelet, turkey sandwich and baked chips, I can't remember what we had for dinner (I'm getting old)
Sunday: coffee, artisan egg sandwich 310 cal, hummus(tapas size) and side salad with grilled chicken from pita jungle, no dinner (lunch was so late I wasn't hungry)

So now its monday and I have my game face on, I had a egg sandwich for breakfast 300 cal and I brought edemame, a salad, and an apple for snacks. LEEEEEETS GO!!!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving :)

Thanksgiving is the time of year where we remember how thankful we are for the lives we have, our families, and our friends. We celebrate this by eating as much turkey, mashed potatoes, and stuffing as humanly possible, watching football, and spending time with family. Its one of my favorite holidays and even though it will be somewhat small this year that doesn't make me any less excited. There is a feeling of dread when I think of how many calories I will consume and the promise I made to myself, to run 5+ miles the morning of. I would much rather sleep in, play with my dogs and then eat dinner without worrying about the evil calories. But I will feel a lot less guilty if I go for a run before dinner. This is a day to be thankful, so there will be no worrying about calories. I will enjoy myself to the fullest (literally) and I hope everyone else does too. 

Monday, November 21, 2011

The Battle

My biggest obstacle has always been myself. I can be very competitive and I have the need to constantly please everyone. This isn't just my battle against the fat kid but a battle in everyday life. I want to please my family, my work, my friends and when I don't, I turn to food. Food is my comfort but its a vicious cycle, as soon as I finish off the large pepperoni/sausage pizza I am upset all over again. The happy feeling only lasts as long as my pizza does, then its bloating and disappointment. Finding another outlet for when I am upset or not being so hard on myself is the battle. And while all of this is happening in my head, the Fat Kid is dancing joyfully, eating krispy kreme donuts, and ordering chinese. Last night wasn't my best night and today even though I am not hungry, I want to eat everything bad for me...mostly a double cheeseburger from whataburger (not that I have thought about it). Today already I have had a v8, an apple, and I am drinking my coffee at work. I am not hungry but I keep thinking of ways that I can get more food. I could eat all day everyday if I let myself, 3 breakfasts, 2 lunches, 4 dinners and lets not forget dessert. Its hard to not eat what everyone else is eating, I know its childish to feel left out but that's what it feels like. Its the fat kid looking at me with these big sad eyes (think Puss n' boots from shrek) and saying "why am i different? what did I do? was I bad? Am I being punished?" then its feelings of resentment that I can't have a fast metabolism or an intense dislike for pizza.  
But at the same time I don't want anyone to feel like they have to eat what I am eating just to make me feel better, or make me something completely different to eat. If you are a woman reading this you probably understand the battle of voices, opinions, and thoughts running through your head at any given time but if you are a guy reading this you are probably thinking, W...T....F. Sorry girls tend to think about 30 different things at once and those 30 things branch off into subcatagories and it keeps going from there. I have to give my husband credit, he seems to be one of the only ones who can keep up with my a.d.d. riddled thought process. He doesn't even blink most of the time when I switch topics at high speed or pick up a conversation we were having 2 days ago like nothing ever happened.
Ok so today I am going to try and work on myself,  I am starting to go down that dark road of twinkies and bacon. But I won't let that happen, I will be satisfied with my apple and v8 and I will repeat my new stress reliving thought when I start beating myself up over something stupid....."Don't try and please everyone, its a recipe for destruction. Eat your salad, enjoy it and go for a run later to clear your head" 

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Goals

I have never been the kind of person who writes their goals down or really even imagines what my goals are. I think its time to change that, I think that having something to work for will help me focus. I can go for a run and when I hit that point where my knees start reminding me that I am getting old and I am wheezing like 2 pack a day smoker, I can say HEY! REMEMBER THAT CHEER UNIFORM FROM HIGH SCHOOL YOU WANT TO FIT INTO? WELL ITS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN BY WALKING, SO PUT IT IN GEAR SISTER! or something like that... I want to lose weight and be healthy but the selfish/vain part of me also wants to wear a bikini and look cute in jeans. So its time to set some goals.

1. I want to fit into my high school cheer uniform and I don't mean suck it in until I can't breathe and not be able to zip it up, I want it to be comfortable
2. I want to lose 50lbs by next April, I know there are always people who say "you don't need to lose that much" or "thats too skinny" but it's not, its healthy and its in the range I need to be in for my height.
3. I want to run a half marathon in 2 hours or less.

I think these are reasonable and attainable. BUT! I will have to work my butt off in order to accomplish them. My body likes being overweight, its quite comfortable at its current weight and its fighting me for every pound. BUT! I can do it. That's something that even a month ago I wouldn't have said and that side of me can kiss my big white behind. Its time to be positive and work hard, because with eating right and working out you get 100% out of it what you put in.

If you think you are too busy to workout then think of it this way, What fits better into your schedule? working out 1 hour a day or being fat 24 hours a day.


Wednesday, November 16, 2011

This is What I imagine the Fat Kid Looks Like


Turkeys, mashed potatoes, and an extra helping of Guilt.

The holidays are quickly approaching, Thanksgiving is next week and Christmas will be here before we know it. For many of us, this means family, fun, alcohol, food, and pants that are too tight. Throughout this journey of egg whites and celery I have always said that I will not give up enjoying life in order to lose a few more pounds. Even as I say that I realize how selfish and self serving that sounds, and I want to clear up exactly what I mean. I am slowly learning that enjoying life does not mean that I have to always have a beer when we go out with friends, or if we go out to dinner I don't have to have the fried chicken. I can enjoy myself and my friends or family while eating a salad. I don't have to tie what I eat or drink together with the amount of fun I am having. However there are some situations that I think you should have a beer or cocktail and enjoy the food to its full potential. My Aunt told me last weekend that "Life is too short to not eat bacon" and I agree but I don't have to eat bacon everyday or when I do eat it, I don't have to eat the whole package by myself. Self control and moderation are two of my biggest fights with the fat kid. So for Thanksgiving this year I will enjoy the turkey and all of its delicious sides but I will also go for a run in the morning that I don't feel as guilty while I stuff mashed potatoes into my face. I am planning on really pushing myself that morning and going for a run that will make up for the excess of calories, I am thinking 5+ miles but that may change :)

The sad part about all of this is even as I am writing this, I am battling the Fat Kid. Its that voice inside your head that says pssssshhhh you won't go for a run....you will give this up soon enough, you can't keep this up....you are always going to be overweight, once you accept that then we can fully enjoy all the things fat has to offer like keeping you warm in winter and eating whole pizzas by yourself.
But I will win and if that means I go to the gym twice today and run until I can't hear anything but myself gasping for air much less the fat kid, then that's what I will do. So take that voice you hear, make an egg white omlete and use the voice for motivation. Imagine skinny jeans, days of shopping that don't force you to have an anxiety attack because nothing fits, and a bikini next summer.... 

Monday, November 14, 2011

Shout out

I would like to thank my Sister In-Law for saving me from bad pizza and delicious chocolate chip cookies last night. It was family game night and there was an intense game of Battle of The Sexes going, I started to turn to meat lovers pizza and chocolate chip cookies for comfort as we slowly started to lose to the boys. I even told Scott that I would have no problem tackling him for his pizza and stealing his cheesy bread (I am not proud of this). But Heather stepped in and reminded me that I didn't need it and it wasn't worth it! I knew I would regret it later so I grabbed my water bottle and pretended that it was a giant Dr. Pepper.

 I am usually on the website Pinterest (its a great website for DIY'ers) and they have a fitness section with tons of quotes for motivation. I saw one yesterday that I really liked. " Don't trade what you want the most for what you want right now" last night this was the mantra I kept telling myself every time I started to reach for a cookie.

Enjoy your Monday, Go to the gym, and leave your excuses behind with your box of twinkies. "If you really want it , you will find a way. If you don't, you will find an excuse"

Food Diary

Sundays dinner: turkey sandwich and bag of baked chips

Monday
3 egg whites, 2 oz chicken, 1/4 cup salsa
yogurt
apple
Lean cuisine
1 sl laughing cow light cheese
dinner is undecided :) 

Sunday, November 13, 2011

If you can't Beat Him, Drown him...

I have a big weakness for my parents cooking and drinking with the family. This weekend we went over to my parents house for the community garage sale and what garage sale is complete without a smoker cooking up a brisket and a couple pork butts? And lets not forget the beer fridge stocked to capacity. I went over with the best of intentions, "no, I am good. Just water for me!" "thats ok I brought my own salad" "you know just for today I decided to be vegetarian!" Blah Blah Blah. Well that lasted about 30 seconds before I was clinging to a bloody mary like it was the fountain of youth and mowing down a chorizo quesadilla... I eventually got a handle on myself and put down the bloody mary, switched to water, and stayed out of the kitchen. We went to Four Peaks for dinner, I stayed away from the tasty craft beer and drank my water with lemon. Me and Scott shared a white pizza and a salad. I ate most of the salad, he ate most of the pizza. It wasn't great but I managed to wrangle myself in before I started drinking ranch dressing.

 My goal is to lose 10lbs for November and I really need to realize that means, NOOOOO cheating. Even just a small slip up can cost me 1-2lbs. I spend a lot of time arguing with myself. I thought this was something I was past, but every time I see a donut or free food in an EMS room its the devil on one shoulder and the skinny angel on the other. The Devil seems to constantly have the Angel in a headlock. I wonder if this is something that I will ever get over, even when I am able to finally lose the weight. Is there some great reveal when you hit a size 2? Automatically you can fit into your jeans and wash them, instead of doing what all females do and only wash them every other week because you finally have them "stretched out." Do you just stop craving anything dipped in ranch dressing or covered in cheese?

So today its me a lean cuisine and a gallon of water, maybe if I just drown the fat kid he will give up....


Saturday: 30min cardio, 30 min total body circuit
egg mcmuffin with apple slices (315cal)
1 bloody mary, chorizo and three cheese quesadilla, 1 massive roll of bread (8bazillion cal)
3/4 salad, with tomatoes, peppers, mushrooms, dressing on the side

Sunday: Day off from the gym
2 egg white wrap from dunkin donuts, 1 lrg coffee with skim milk  (345 cal)
2 laughing cow light cheese slices (70cal)
lean Cuisine(340)
Apple (95)
Hummus with celery (100cal)
Dinner is unknown at the moment...

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Fall Recipe

I love fall and all the delicious food that comes with it. How can you not love pumpkin roll, pecan pie, turkey, mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, and apples? This is a dinner from my Mother In Laws Cooking Light  Cookbook. Its one of my favorite meals but now its low calorie and hits all the nutritional reqs.

Pork Loin Chops with Cinnamon Apples

1tsp dried rubbed sage
1/2tsp salt
1/4tsp fresh ground pepper
4 (4oz) boneless center cut loin pork chops, about 1/2 in thick
1/2 tsp vegetable oil
cooking spray
1tsp butter

  • 4 cups (1/2-inch) slices peeled Granny Smith apples (about 4 medium) 
  • 1 tablespoon brown sugar 
  • 1 teaspoon fresh lemon juice 
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • Dash of salt 

Preparation

  • Combine first 3 ingredients, and sprinkle over the pork. Heat oil in a large nonstick skillet coated with cooking spray over medium heat. Add pork; cook 3 minutes on each side or until done. Remove the pork from pan. Cover and keep warm.
  • Melt butter in pan over medium heat. Add apples and remaining ingredients, and cook 5 minutes or until tender, stirring frequently. Serve the apples with pork.
  • Calories 251  Fat 8.3 Protein 24.1 carb 20.2 Sodium 388


And because no fall meal or really any meal is not complete without mashed potatoes, here is the recipe from cooking light

Mashed Potatoes

1/2 lb red potatoes quartered
1tsp butter
1 garlic clove
3 tbl fat free milk
1/8 salt

put potatoes in a small saucepan and cover with water, bring to a boil, reduce heat, simmer until tender

combine butter and minced garlic in a microwave safe bowl, microwave on high for 30 seconds or until butter melts add potatoes, milk. and salt, mash mixture to desired consistency

serving size 3/4 cup

Calories 208, fat 3.9, Protein 7.9 Sodium 357 


Day Ten....again

 Every now and then I run into a situation at work that hits home and makes me realize why I am doing this. When you see a young lady not even in her 40's who can't walk or even take care of herself because of complications from diabetes and high blood pressure, it really hits home. I don't ever want to be in that position, those are conditions that can be reversed. It is something she did to herself, and that could have easily been avoided. If you didn't know Ralphie May the comedian was just released from the hospital after complications from pneumonia. He went to the hospital with a chest cold that turned out to be pneumonia that had sent blood clots into his lungs. He almost died and was very lucky to make it out alive. I listened to him  
give a radio interview today and one thing that he said really got to me. He said that he felt like a scumbag because of everything he put his family through and making everyone worry. He now wants to lose more weight and he has stopped smoking weed. These are two extreme situations but they are situations that I don't ever want to put myself  or my family in. So while I may want a breakfast burrito from filibertos, I am going to have egg whites and grilled chicken. Because honestly, it just isn't worth it. What would you rather have, extra years with your kids and spouse or a krispy kreme? I am not saying that we should never eat these things, or that you have to eat clean every moment of every day  but you can't eat crap every day either. I had pizza this weekend, and it was Glorious! but I also ran 13.1 miles. Its a game of debits and credits, if I insist on eating bad food then I must also kick the crap out of myself at the gym. If I take out or put in something in one column then I have to add or subtract to the other to balance.

Ok enough with the serious talk.

On Sunday my mom and I ran  in the Womens half marathon. 13.1 miles of up hill, down hill, live music, great views, great people, and jello legs. We finished in just over 3 hours, it was my moms first one and I am very proud of her! she kicked some serious butt! If you have never done one of these races before, I recommend them. Even if you walk you are raising money for a charity and exercising so its a win win. I haven't worked out for the past three days (terrible I know) Day 1 was because I was letting my knees take a day off, days 2 and 3 I have no excuse for not working out. So today I will go back, the tentative plan is to run to the gym (2 miles) do the mudder workout, and then run back home.

Food Diary
Sunday(race day) : frosted flakes with 1% milk, apple, v8, and a redbull. split lunch with my mom after the race, biscuits and gravy and Arizona chicken rolls, left over pizza for dinner

Monday: v8, luna protein bar, apple, sugar free jello, lean cuisine, hummus with celery, pretzels, chicken sandwich  string cheese

Tuesday: egg sandwich, v8, apple, sugar free jello, lean cuisine, apple, sugar free pudding, pretzels

Wednesday: light yogurt with granola, v8 , grilled chicken with asparagus, tomatoes, and mozzarella, side ceasar salad, pork tenderloin with potato pancakes and salad.

Thursday: 3 egg whites with grilled chicken cheese and salsa, soup, turkey spinach enchiladas.

Still no Alcohol, no fast food and still on track for exercising :) 

Saturday, November 5, 2011



Work out options
So here are two new workouts that i tried this week courtesy of Mr. Ellis :) 
 
Warning: you will not be able to lift your arms much less wipe your own rear!
Workout# 1: the 300
There is a ladies version and a men's, I did the ladies version twice and it kicked my butt.
Ladies 300
5 pull ups
30 dumbell dead lifts
20 push ups
25 body weight squat jumps onto a 24in platform
20 v-ups
20 dumbell push press
5 pull ups
I used a 15lb dumbell for the press and a 30lb bar for the dead lifts and v-ups
Men's 300
Same exercises but more reps
25 pull ups
50 db dead lifts
50 push ups
50 bw squat jumps
50v ups
50 db push press
25 pull ups
Here is the link to the youtube video with examples.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtube_gdata_player&v=ggiYjRelWgc

Workout# 2
The murph
I haven't tried this one yet but it's my plan for the day.
Run 1 mile
100 pull ups
200 push ups
300 body weight squats
Run 1 mile
Scott likes this one but he recommends breaking it into 10 sets of 10 pull ups, 20 push ups, 30 squats. You're supposed to do it in under an hour but the main goal is just to finish :)
Enjoy and curse me later

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Satisfying the fat kid


Satisfying the fat kid.
Its not hard to satisfy a fat kid, they love everything . (Get your mind out of the gutter) I'm talking about doughnuts, pizza, disneyland...you know, simple stuff! But how do you trick the fat kid into thinking he's still fat and happy? Lean cuisine comfort foods are a great option, the fat kid doesn't need to know that your meatloaf and mashed potatoes are only 300calories, or what you are pretending is soda is actually just sparkling flavored water. But he's a sneaky bastard and just when you think you have control over the little jerk, BOOM Halloween hits and there is candy everywhere. We didn't even buy any this year, we gave out candy that was leftover from the wedding (sorry sam and cc). We gave it all out, we didn't want any left in the house. I was proud of us, nothing hits our weak spot like chocolate and peanut butter. So I'm riding on this high of control and a candy free house when I walk into work... freaking candy EVERYWHERE! Turns out my work is collecting candy to send to the troops! You try and turn away from a bag of Reese's. The only saving grace was the guilt trip of taking candy away from soldiers who are risking their lives for our freedom. Damn!
This week has been ok, workouts have been good, eating has been ok. Control is warring with the fat kid and it's been hard. My goal is to lose 10lbs in November. I only lost 1.5lbs in October and it's time to get the fat kid wagon rolling. So back to the food and workout diary. Remember im a catholic/lutheran hybrid so guilt trips can shame me into eating only celery for days. Thank you agin for the never ending support! The fat kid is shrinking today and the little jerk is fighting a tough battle.


Food diary:
2eggs, toast
2cups coffee with 1%milk and sweetnlow
Lean cuisine
Celery with hummus
Chicken tacos, lettuce, tomato,cheese, non fat sour cream, corn tortillas
Workout: 4 mile run with big dummy (our 70+ lb bloodhound pup)


Thursday, October 27, 2011

Tough Mudder Workout

So this is the workout that my husband and his good friend Chris showed me. It is painful, it's stupid, it works, and it gets you in and out of the gym in an hour. So I apologize in advance if you decide to try this, you will not be able to sit on a toilet, lift your arms, or even walk correctly for a couple days. I did it yesterday for the 2nd time and I couldn't finish the run (I made it to 21 minutes)

http://toughmudder.com/training-prep/
The Tough Mudder Workout consists of 16 exercises that collectively work every part of your body. Some of these can be found in our favorite YouTube Tough Mudder training video (shown above), although be aware that one contains some extra crazy exercises as well.
We know that you’re a busy person. So, each exercise is a 60-second station designed to challenge your heart and lungs, as well as your muscles. The final product is a high-intensity circuit designed to torch everything from your chest and legs to your abs and arms, sending your fitness to an elite Tough Mudder level. You’ll sculpt a rugged, gritty, and classically athletic body that’s built Mudder Tough.
Do the Get Fit circuit 3 days a week and perform each exercise once, one right after the other, spending no more than a minute on each one. Do as many reps as you can in that time, then move on to the next station, limiting yourself to 15 seconds of rest in between. Build your endurance to the point where one week before Tough Mudder you can comfortably do the circuit twice. Make sure to use a weight that’s challenging for the 20 or so reps you’ll be doing for each exercise.
You can use dumbbells, kettlebells, or anything heavy with a handle for most, if not all, of the exercises below.

Exercise 1 – Running Man
To get yourself in peak cardio condition, you can either:
1) Get on a treadmill. Start jogging at a slow comfortable pace for the first 5 minutes, then increase the speed to a full sprint for a full minute before reducing the speed back down to a jog for a minute or two. Alternate this jogging and sprinting for 35 minutes. Build up to 1 hr.
2) Free run. As you head outside for a jog, choose a point or landmark in the distance that’s reasonably far and sprint to it. Do this 10 or so times throughout the course of your run, paying attention to mixing in jogging and sprinting equally. Again, build up to running 3-4 times a week and increasing your distance gradually until you can comfortably run 5+ miles.
Related Obstacle: The Braveheart Charge (& all of Tough Mudder)

Exercise 2 – TM PUSH-UP
Start out in a regular pushup position with two dumb bells in each hand. As you push your body upwards, rotate your torso at peak height and bring your right hand up behind you so that your hands are in a vertical line. Lower the weight so that you are once again in push up position. Do a push up, repeating with your left hand.
Related Obstacle: Boa Constrictor
Exercise 3 – THE FIST AND THE FURY
Grab a dumbbell, kettlebell, or anything heavy with a handle, in one hand and let it hang in front of you. Lower the weight below your hips and let it swing between your knees and legs. Try to keep your core sturdy and straight, explode upwards and swing the weight up to about eye level in a fully upright position. With control, do this as many times as you can, spending about 45 seconds on each arm.
Related Obstacle: Berlin Walls

Exercise 4 – SCISSOR KICK
From a regular standing position, take one big step forward and lower yourself into a forward stepping lunge. This is the start position. From there, explode off the ground, getting enough air under you to scissor kick your legs and land with your opposite leg forward and ready to crouch down to the lunge position. Keep doing this, alternating your legs on each jump/repetition for 60 seconds.
Related Obstacle: Fire Walker

Exercise 5 – BACK ROW
Grab a pair of dumbbells or kettle bells and bend over, holding them in each hand, making sure your back is parallel to the ground. Keep your core steady and pull the weights in a controlled manner up to your chest, hold at the top for the rep, pause, and repeat.
Related Obstacle: Hold Your Wood

Exercise 6 – DUMBBELL SIDE LUNGE
Grab your dumbbells and let them hang by your sides. Take a lateral step with your right leg, completely straightening your left leg. From there, bend forward at your hips, and touch the dumbbells to the floor by your right foot. Push off your right leg and make the same lateral lunge on your left leg. That’s one rep.
Related Obstacle: Swamp Stomp

Exercise 7 – PUSH UP + ROW
Grab two dumbbells and assume a pushup position, with your arms straight. Perform a regular pushup, but as you fully extend your arms at the height of the push up, take one dumbbell and bring it all the way to the side of your chest. Lower your arm and descend back ot the start position. Repeat with the other arm. That’s one rep.
Related Obstacle: Devil’s Beard
Exercise 8 – LUNGE + TWIST
Grab a heavy object and clutch it tight to the middle of your chest as you stand with feet shoulder length apart. Take a step forward as you would with a normal lunge, but as you lower your body with the weight, twist your torso to the right, pause, and return to a full upright position. Do the same with the opposite leg. That’s one rep.
Related Obstacle: Sweati Yeti
Exercise 9 – SHOULDER PRESS
Grab some dumbbells or small kettle bells in each hand and spread your feet shoulder length apart as you would for a squat. Bring the dumbbells up to your shoulders as if you were doing a shoulder press. Lower yourself as you keep the weights cocked at the shoulder, as you explode upward from the squat position, push the weights up and above your head.
Related Obstacle: Cliffhanger

Exercise 10 – DECLINE PUSH UP
Simple, quick, and easy. Get into a normal pushup position, but put your feet on top of an elevated park bench or box, arms extended out in front of you so that your body is perfectly parallel to the floor above the ground. Begin to do as many pushups as you can in the next 60 seconds.
Related Obstacle: Kiss of Mud
Exercise 11 – Quick Feet
Staying in the pushup position, rapidly bring each knee towards your chest, as if you were sprinting in place or pedaling a ridiculously small bike.
Related Obstacle: The Bastard

Exercise 12 – Tough Chin Up
Just like your old man used to do, hang from a bar with either an overhand or underhand grip and pull yourself up – be sure to try and touch your chest to the bar, or get as close as you can. This will get progressively harder as the set wears on. Remember to do as many as you can for the full 60 seconds. Even if you have to take a slight break, be sure to finish the set.
Related Obstacle: Underwater Tunnels
Exercise 13 – Superman Plank
Get back into the pushup position you’ve grown accustomed to, placing your forearms on the ground and keeping your core – abs and hips – tight as possible. Hold this position for a full 60 seconds.
Related Obstacle: Greased Lightening

Exercise 14 – Drunk Superman Side Planks
Get on your side and hold yourself up by left forearm, creating a half triangle between your lats, forearm, and ground. Like a regular plank, keep your core tight – flex if you have to – and hold the position for 60 seconds, then alternate with your right side and repeat for another 60.
Related Obstacle – Walk the Plank

Exercise 15 – Angelina Jolie
Get in between two chairs, bars, or if at a gym, a dip machine. Grab each bar or handle with each arm and lower yourself slowly and with control, as you push up with your arms try to explode up, lifting yourself completely off. Be sure to start out slowly until you get used to jumping off and regaining control of the bars.
Related Obstacle: Ball Shrinker

Exercise 16 – THE TOUGH SQUAT
Take a dumbbell, kettle bell, or large stone, anything you can find, and hold it in front of your chest. Stick your hips out behind you, bend your knees, and lower yourself until you’re in a full squat position. Pause for a second for the burn to really set in and then push yourself back to the start position.
Related Obstacle: Death March

Never Underestimate the Power of a BackPack Leash

Its hard to explain to somebody who has never been fat what your inner fat kid is, why you can't say no to one more slice of pizza or why spending 3hours in the gym isn't a "fun" activity for you. I think of him like a Thurman merman type kid wearing a backpack leash that I have to drag around everywhere, somedays he is small and easy to carry other times he is a 300lb linebacker pulling ME.  The fat kid has a unique ability to grab my by my belly fat and pull me towards a open pizza buffet. (This may disturb some of you, and for those with a weak stomach I recommend moving to the next paragraph) Its like I have a belly button ring that is attached to a string and this string is attached to my inner fat kid who will only pull me to bad food and my couch.The fat kid pulls me until I reach one of the two and it hurts until I get to where the string wants me to go but once I get there its a great feeling. I enjoy the bad food, how can you not love cheese, sauce, pepperoni, sausage, and dough??? I have no need to run 26.2 miles, do an iron man, or eat tofu. I know its good for me and I know people think that it makes you a better person. I do want to be a better person, I want to be a healthier person, and more than anything I want as much time as possible with my family and friends.

So unfortunately its Day 1...again. Time to get back on the wagon. The wagon is filled with other foodaholics so that is nice. I have noticed that when foodaholics get together all we talk about is the food we miss. This cracks me up, and I am as guilty of it as the next fatty. The trainer that kicked my butt on a regular basis before the wedding has her own fat kid. We went out to lunch the other day to a great restaurant that has healthy options and is delicious (even her firefighter fiancee likes it), we both ordered giant salads with yummy toppings and after we finished catching up and gossiping it started to become a conversations about all the bad food we missed and how bad we used to be (aka eating a whole pizza or dipping oreos in PB). Once I am on the "wagon" It seems like I put food on a pedestal. Things that wouldn't normally bother me such as ice cream, start an immediate drool train. The things that normally I like but I now eat on a regular basis get old quick. I need to figure out a way to change things up. Lunch and breakfast are the hardest because of time. I think I might have to tap into my inner hippie and start going to farmers markets for cheap fruit and veggies. I love fresh fruit and veggies but because of the cost and ease of frozen or prepackaged food, I tend to take the easy route.

So if you see me feel free to give me a swift kick in the ass. I will not go back down this route of self hatred and doughnuts. But its day 1, time to focus on my 30 day fatty chip.  So Eat Clean, Enjoy Life, and Laugh at the people who run for fun (they are dumb).

Thursday, October 20, 2011

WOO HOO NEW RECIPE!

I love greek food, I could eat gyros every day and we buy hummus by the gallon. This is a great low cal, easy week night meal for us. It takes about 20 minutes to make from start to finish. We use the low carb, whole wheat tortillas instead of pitas and it makes a easy switch to cut calories (plus its a pain in the butt to find whole wheat pitas)

Ingredients

  • Chicken:
  • 2 tablespoons fresh lemon juice
  • 1 teaspoon curry powder
  • 2 teaspoons extravirgin olive oil
  • 3/4 teaspoon salt
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cumin
  • 3 garlic cloves, minced
  • 1 pound skinless, boneless chicken breast, cut into 16 (3-inch) strips
  • Sauce:
  • 1/2 cup plain 2% reduced-fat Greek yogurt (such as Fage)
  • 2 tablespoons tahini
  • 2 teaspoons fresh lemon juice
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 1 garlic clove, minced
  • Remaining ingredients:
  • Cooking spray
  • 4 (6-inch) pitas
  • 1 cup chopped romaine lettuce
  • 8 (1/4-inch-thick) tomato slices

Preparation

  • 1. Preheat grill to medium-high heat.
  • 2. To prepare chicken, combine first 6 ingredients in a medium bowl. Add chicken to bowl; toss well to coat. Let stand at room temperature 20 minutes.
  • 3. To prepare sauce, combine yogurt and next 4 ingredients (through 1 garlic clove), stirring with a whisk.
  • 4. Thread 2 chicken strips onto each of 8 (12-inch) skewers. Place kebabs on a grill rack coated with cooking spray; grill 4 minutes on each side or until done.
  • 5. Place pitas on grill rack; grill 1 minute on each side or until lightly toasted. Place 1 pita on each of 4 plates; top each serving with 1/4 cup lettuce and 2 tomato slices. Top each serving with 4 chicken pieces; drizzle each serving with 2 tablespoons sauce.

Amount per serving (yields 4 servings)
  • Calories: 384
  • Calories from fat: 23%
  • Fat: 9.8g
  • Saturated fat: 2.1g
  • Monounsaturated fat: 4.1g
  • Polyunsaturated fat: 2.7g
  • Protein: 34.4g
  • Carbohydrate: 40g
  • Fiber: 2.5g
  • Cholesterol: 64mg
  • Iron: 4.3mg
  • Sodium: 821mg

Therapy for the fat kid.

Ok so for the past week or so I have been mad and not just mad, extremely pissed off. It of course has to do with food, for whatever reason this week has just made me mad. I WANT to eat bad food, I WANT to be skinny, I WANT to be healthy, and I WANT it to just be freakin EASY. I know how childish I sound but that doesn't stop me from wanting to scream, cry, and stomp my foot on the ground. I have all these emotions running through me like a hormonal roller coaster and even though I know they are childish, and wrong I have them anyways. So excuse me while I bitch and moan for a few sentences. Its not fair (yes I am aware of how lame that sounds). Every time I see a skinny girl whine about how fat she is as she slides into her (GASP) size 4 jeans, I want to punch her in the face/cry. I worked with a girl the other day who said that she eats taco bell every meal!! Of course she is tall and skinny. A small but evil part of me is thinking well at least I know she will have clogged arteries. Its frustrating, If I even look at a taco the wrong way my butt starts to expand. I wish it was easy, I wish I didn't enjoy bad, fatty, greasy food so much, I wish I could enjoy exercise more, and I thought that egg whites were the greatest food on the planet. So this week I didn't say no, I didn't think about my clogged arteries, I didn't think about what I was doing to my blood sugar. Now I regret it, its like having buyers remorse. I wish I could take back the Italian sausage sandwich with fries, or the cookie pie but that's called bulimia and I'm pretty sure its frowned upon.

Well that was actually kinda therapeutic (sorry for the whining fest)

Thank you all for being there for me and believing in me, you have no idea how much it means to me and my cholesterol levels. I will be better about blogging more, I know I have been slacking lately.

Food Diary
2 soft boiled eggs, 1 bagel thin
steak sandwich, sirloin steak 4oz, pesto, light mayo 1tbls, 1/2 roasted red pepper, 1sl skim mozz, 1 sandwich thin
sugar free jello
lean cuisine
coffee, coffee, and more coffee

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Positive Reinforcement not Treats

I read a quote yesterday that said "Don't reward yourself with food, You're not a dog!"
I really like this, it makes me take a step back and think. Its more of how I need to rewire my brain to think about food. There are other forms of rewarding myself instead of using food. I can't let myself go out and binge or eat whatever I want every time I hit a mile marker. Sorry for the rant, I seem to have a very hard time not eating fatty, sugary, bad foods on weekends and after I hit a weight loss goal. I finally lost the weight I regained, and I lost 1 more pound. The 10lb mark is usually my hardest goal to get past, I can usually lose 10lbs pretty quick and then I stay at that weight or I start gaining back. So to lose that 1 lb is a big motivator for me. Have to keep going and keep my nose to the grind or in my case the mouth to the veggies and the feet to the treadmill.

Last week I went to Barnes and Noble, while we were there I went to go check out the cookbook/dieting section. I was looking for a book that had low calorie food ideas that was also budget friendly. I also looked for something that might help my with my food addiction. I wanted to read something for people like me, people who LOVE food but can't eat whatever they want. There was NOTHING.... plenty of low calorie recipe books, and even some that were budget friendly but none that had on the go options. There was were plenty of "diet books" the Atkins, the cookie, south beach, etc etc. But I have said from day 1, this isn't a diet. This is a lifestyle change and I was looking for something that I could use everyday and use in real life. Real life does not allow me to cook a 3 course meal in the back of the Ambulance. So I kept looking and finally I found a set of books called EAT THIS NOT THAT. They are amazing! Scott bought me the Eat This Not That NO DIET Diet. It has options for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. It shows you what to order at restaurants to make a wholesome low calorie meal, fast food or sit down. There are items to buy at the grocery store, and recipes to make at home. It has everything! I have used it all week and with results. Places I thought I had to stay away from I can now go back to and order the right meal for me and my lifestyle. Its great for in a pinch or on vacation. You can't always make every meal and you can't stay at home and never eat out so this is a great tool to have handy for whenever you do go out. I keep it in my purse and whenever I need it, its right there.  The Fat Kid is jumping up and down while screaming like a little girl with excitement... I can go to Arbys, I can go to MacDonald's and not feel starved or cheated.

This journey never fails to amaze me with what I have learned and continue to learn.

One more Quote...

"I am getting rid of the weight, not losing weight. Losing implies that you plan on finding it again"

Thursday, October 6, 2011

You are what you eat

If that's true then I need to eat a skinny person.

 What I eat definitely affects how I feel, greasy or high carb foods tend to make me feel really bloated and fat. Anything leafy and green or types of fruits make me feel better. Its amazing how just a few days of bad eating can make me feel like complete crap. I am not sure why but for most of this week I have eaten whatever I wanted and I had no self control. I am fighting myself and the fat kid to get it back. Last night I took control and even when I wanted to quit I didn't, I ran for 1 hour and ran just over 5 miles. Its not anything crazy but it makes me feel like I have gained back part of the control I lost somewhere at Filibertos between the refried beans and rolled tacos.
 I think its going to be harder at work to stay on track, my partner Ryan who was also trying to eat healthy and lose weight left our shift for bigger and better things. In our business most people eat fast food for every meal and I have a really hard time eating my salad or grilled chicken breast while the other person downs a burger and fries. So it will be more exercises in self control and saying no. It helps me to go back and read the first couple of blogs that I posted. I like reading how far I have come and ideas I had to keep me on track, I have to remember to think of bad foods as cigarettes. They can kill me, they turn other people off, and they don't portray the kind of person I want to be.

My first of three half marathons is exactly 1 month from today. Time to really start pushing myself in the gym, this first 13.1 miles is going to be my easiest one. I will be keeping pace with my mom and sticking with a jog/walk pace. For the next 3 months I will have a half marathon every month. The Susan G. Komen in November, Rock N Roll Las Vegas in December, and Rock N Roll (PF Changs) in January. I ran PF changs last year and finished the half in 2:35. My goal this year is to finish the first one with my mom, finish vegas in the same time or better, and finish PF Changs in 2 hours. I will be picking the brains of some runners I know to try and write a running program to decrease my time and increase my endurance. If anybody out there wants to run with me, I am always looking for a gym buddy! I am going to start by running 4-5 days/week with a long run on the weekends. Last night I ran 5 miles in 57 mins, I started with a 5 minute warm up (3.2mph, level 15) then I started running at 5.7 mph at level 2. I would walk for 1 minute everytime I hit a mile interval. In order to finish in 2 hours or left I will have to keep around a 9min/mile pace.  or a 6.5 mph pace. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
sorry kind of had to freak out for a second. For me that is really fast and by really fast I mean I don't run that fast unless there is somebody in a ski mask waving a gun behind me....

Today I will keep working on my self control...To bad I don't have the negative reinforcement that White Goodman had in Dodgeball (but slightly less creepy)





Saturday, October 1, 2011

And the Inner Fat Kids sneaks in for the Wine! Umm I mean the Win...

My weeks are normally pretty busy. I work anywhere from 36 hrs(minimum) to 96hrs (maximum) per week and trying to balance that with being a wife, a dog mom, a sister, daughter, aunt, friend, etc etc can sometimes leave me pretty tired.When I get this tired I tend to have nightmares, I have had them since I was little and they more often than not are nightmares about random grown up weird stuff like paying bills, car accidents, or this Tuesday nights special, a helicopter crash (Don't ask, I have no idea why).This week I only worked 36 hours (I'm working 72 next week to make up for it) and I had spent Sunday-Wednesday having strange nightmares that leave me in a panic. So Thursday finally came along and I decided that I was NOT going to clean, or even act like a functioning member of society. It was AWESOME. I read vampire romance novels, watched TV, did some facebook stalking, didn't make it out of my PJs and was just a bum in general. Along with this awesomeness came a set of cravings that I had thought myself above. All of a sudden I was a 12 year old on the first day of summer. I wanted to eat myself into a diabetic coma, anything sugary and sweet was on the menu. I managed to curb these cravings and when I joined Scott for lunch at the good egg, I had a egg white omelet that was delicious. Of course the inner fat kid ate the potatoes before I had even realized what I was doing, he can be a very sneaky SOB. We had Stuffed Bell Peppers for dinner. I switched up the recipe a little bit and instead of ground lean turkey I cut up some artichoke and cheese chicken sausages that I had found at Costco. It turned out pretty good but I think I will go back to the lean turkey just to keep it healthier. Friday came along and I just let go, I am not sure why but I was bad. I had 3 soft boiled eggs with wheat toast for breakfast, then I ate some of my nieces mac and cheese, then I had some leftover pasta, and I still went out to dinner! I shared a bottle of wine, and a hummus appetizer with some friends and had a beef gyro for dinner.

So no big shocker I gained some weight, the weight that I swore I would never put back on. I am upset with myself and I don't know why I wasn't able to say no. I read in a magazine that no matter what you will end up cheating, that is life and denying yourself lifes special treats will only lead to unhappiness. I know that but I also don't think its ok to just eat like I did for two days. This is a lifestyle change, I had a attitude setback yesterday but its a new day and time to get over it. Just because I cheated on Thursday and Friday does not give me the right to say "well guess I will start over on Monday, the weekend is already ruined" No. If I mess up then I can get back on track during my next meal. I can gain control I am 24 years old if I can't control myself now then how will I ever?

So now to regain control. Time to clean my house, wash my dogs, make my food for the week and listen to some loud music :)

Todays Menu:

2 cups coffee( for my heart of course )
1 trenta green tea with 1 sweetn low
spinach egg white wrap (280cal)
Lean cuisine
pb sandwhich
Dinner at Culinary Dropout with some awesome friends