Discipline has never
really been my thing
Donuts have been my
thing
Pizza has been my
thing
Eating Chinese food
and watching blazing saddles has been my thing
But discipline…
Nah, I’m good thanks.
I wait for motivation
to strike and then I bleed that well dry
Example: training for
3 half iron and 1 full iron distance races in 12 months.
As I entered my
(Scotts) credit card info I basked in my motivation
I sat high upon my
motivation mountain and looked down
I was motivation, I
breathed motivation, I became one with motivation
Right up until I wasn’t
The well was dry
I was chugging my
bike up another goddamn hill thinking how I could be eating donuts and not
chewing on another peanut butter and jelly sandwich and boom motivation was
gone.
The fickle creature
left me right in the middle of my training.
Poof.
Gone.
See Ya Later
My motivation had
gone to the pizza parlor to kick back with a beer
I was still on the
hill
It was discipline
that kept me from throwing my bike in front of traffic and following my
motivation to get pizza
There has to be a
balance
As soon as I crossed
that finish line I lost a large chunk of both
I put my bike in
hibernation, nursed my sore and chafed body parts, and went after some beer and
pizza.
Its 6 months later
My bike and I are
still not talking
Nether regions have
not forgiven me
I have enjoyed the
hell out of not training
I do miss competition
but I am sticking to my year off
The problem with a
year off is finding the discipline and motivation to treat my body like it
deserves
My goal is happy and healthy
Not a finish line
Not a specific weight
Not a certain pair of
jeans
Happy
Healthy
So I have had to find
discipline
Motivation is easier
Motivation is my
husband, my family, our trip to New Zealand
Discipline is looking
over a pile of donuts as I eat my eggs
Are donuts the devil?
No
Do I have to eat only
Kale and water to hit my goals?
Nope.
In fact if I did that
I would be miserable
Miserable is very far
from happy and healthy
So what is the point
of my random ramblings?
Motivation will not
always be there
Discipline will not
always be there
Keep moving forward
regardless
If you don’t have
motivation to go to the gym that day then go because you are a disciplined
athlete
No discipline to put
down the donuts? Then use your motivation to back away and eat something that
makes you feel good.
We have to find
balance
None of us are
perfect
Least of all me
Find the balance
Find the motivation
Find the discipline
Find Happiness.
