Peak Week

Peak Week is here

I am officially done with my two longest runs and rides

60 mile bike ride x2

10 mile run x2

Nap x2hrs

Food?

Well. 

It wasn't pretty and it involved a foot long from Subway

I have really tried to listen to my body these last few months

I eat when I am hungry

stop when I am full 

last night?

not hungry 

this morning? 

Still not hungry

I had to eat anways because I was about to run 10 miles 

I also ate out on my run 

even though the last thing I wanted was another goo

 then I swam 30 min in a very cold lake

another hour goes by 

and then 

BOOM

starvation

I could eat my arm

get me food now before I pillage the villagers

hurry save the children

pure starvation

I asked Scott as politely and nonchalantly as I could if he was also hungry

(inside my body was screaming that if we didn't get off this freeway now and I mean right now, get me to a drive thru and place a taco in my hand in the next 2 min I was going to come through the car window at somebody)

He responded with yeah, he could eat. 

(inside I am rejoicing)

Me: Ok thanks, can we get subway?

Scott: Sure

*senses hangry approaching and swerves to get off the freeway*

Me: This. This. is why I love you. 

(One of many reasons)

Its been a few months since I last finished a foot long sandwich

I have found that when I actually take my time to eat and I am mindful of hunger/satiety cues that I eat a lot less

today was not the case

Today I listened

I slowed down

I recognized when I was getting full and decided to stop eating, drink some water and reassess in a hour. 

well I killed a foot long sub

and I waited 2 hours instead of 1

why?

Nap time. 

Swim Bike Run Eat Sleep and REPEAT! 

Like I said... Peak week is here 

I am probably the only person that thinks this is funny

But I think its REALLY funny so that counts. 

(Taper is what comes after peak week)

(That animal is called a tapir)

(I've been told that jokes you have to explain probably aren't funny)

(Don't care)

Just a real quick panic attack.

How in the hell did peak week(s) get here?

If I had a panic button now would be the time to hit it

And scream

And let a minion run around yelling BeeeDoooBeeeDooo

All systems on deck

It’s almost go time

I have 2 more major weeks of training and then

Boom.

It’s here

Ironman Oceanside 70.3

I am a little* panicky

(*Extremely)

This is going to be a harder course

I had to re-learn how to swim

I cried last weekend on a scary downhill curve

I blew a tire

I have yet to hit 50 miles on my bike

*&!$@$!^@#*$^%#%@!!!!!

Be cool Lauren.

Be. Cool.

You got this.

If nothing else you get to be by the beach with your family and friends for your Birthday

Well, they get to sit by the beach for your birthday

You get to lube yourself up, slide into spandex and test the limits of the human to bike seat relationship

It’s Fine

It’s fine.

Seriously.

It’s fine.

&@@#@##($@$*&^%$#@!!!!

Be. Cool.

You got this.

You totally have this.

So what if you have been focusing the last 5 months on battling an eating disorder, completely changing your eating habits, going through treatment, seeing two therapists an RD, and waiting on a prescription for Xanax.

You have also been running faster

Swimming more efficiently

Using a coach

You can be an Ironman

This is a stepping stone to IMAZ

You can be a shaky, sweaty, eating disordered, anxiety ridden, proud, badass Ironman

Or half Ironman

Think of it as 8 hours to spend perfecting your use of the word &*%@